I Dare You To Love Harder
Dear Tumblr,
What do you do when the man you once loved is a rapist? And despite it was your best friend, the existence of ever fiber in your body, still wants him back? How do you cope? How do you tell yourself that you’re an okay person, when the natural thing would’ve been to gather up nothing but hate for the man, and yet, in your heart, you wish you’d texted him back? Wish you could see him? Wish you had closure to why you weren’t enough for him? If he violated your friend, why can’t you just disown him? Why didn’t you hate him from the getgo? What the fuck is wrong with you?
if only a text message could help
i thought i forgot you. i thought i’d made you disappear. but there you were. lurking around the corners.
hidden in the bass line of mutual shared songs
the figure beside me in my empty car
if i look too fast , i can see your hat
if i breathe deeply enough, there’s your scent
if i listen closely, the sound of your heart thuds through the speakers
i wish i never met you. i wish it wasn’t going on two years.
i wish i still didn’t love you.
